Exaltation
I've decided I have to write about my recent life. I am so..... well for lack of a better word....'happy' about things, I fear I might just explode sometimes. So maybe writing in my little blog-a-ma-jog will ease my excitement. Though I'm not sure I want that.....
Sometimes in life, you get tossed a struggle or a challenge that you just don't know if you can overcome. I have felt that to the extreme the past 3 months. I have honestly wondered about my own ability to withstand. But the past few days have given me hope- actually made me feel... alive again. It's not that I expect or assume things are going to go back to how they were- because I don't want that. The past was not all I thought it was, and I don't want to relive that. But the idea that the future might hold something fantastic- something unbelievable- something unexperienced by any before- has now been entertained in my mind. I know there are a lot of changes that have to occur and I know the road will not be a short one. But to think that the dream I once thought I was living might really be a reality someday has made me feel all sorts of giddy inside. It's really a great feeling. = )
Chipper 10, I don't know what our future holds- as you always say- but I can tell you this. How you have made me feel these past few days is exactly how love is supposed to feel. I don't know if you really are 'in love' because that's an extremely strong emotion- the strongest in the world. But I do feel your love for me. And that's all I've ever wanted since we met. It may sound selfish, but I wanted to feel what I meant to you. And I do. Just like in January. And in April. I wish I could communicate well and put into words how amazing you've made me feel. But I can't. I'm sorry. But just know that you mean the world to me. I remember back in January, when we used to talk about the 'if'. Do you remember? We'd always ask each other things and say "if". Then one day, when we were in Vegas, we turned that "if" into reality. That was so great. I feel like January again. And we're back to the "if" stage- and you know what?!? I love it. I do. I don't know if that "if" will become reality this time, but I know I love how we have been and I love feeling like I mean the world to you. So thank you. I love you so much. You are my best friend.
I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain....away.
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.
Sometimes in life, you get tossed a struggle or a challenge that you just don't know if you can overcome. I have felt that to the extreme the past 3 months. I have honestly wondered about my own ability to withstand. But the past few days have given me hope- actually made me feel... alive again. It's not that I expect or assume things are going to go back to how they were- because I don't want that. The past was not all I thought it was, and I don't want to relive that. But the idea that the future might hold something fantastic- something unbelievable- something unexperienced by any before- has now been entertained in my mind. I know there are a lot of changes that have to occur and I know the road will not be a short one. But to think that the dream I once thought I was living might really be a reality someday has made me feel all sorts of giddy inside. It's really a great feeling. = )
Chipper 10, I don't know what our future holds- as you always say- but I can tell you this. How you have made me feel these past few days is exactly how love is supposed to feel. I don't know if you really are 'in love' because that's an extremely strong emotion- the strongest in the world. But I do feel your love for me. And that's all I've ever wanted since we met. It may sound selfish, but I wanted to feel what I meant to you. And I do. Just like in January. And in April. I wish I could communicate well and put into words how amazing you've made me feel. But I can't. I'm sorry. But just know that you mean the world to me. I remember back in January, when we used to talk about the 'if'. Do you remember? We'd always ask each other things and say "if". Then one day, when we were in Vegas, we turned that "if" into reality. That was so great. I feel like January again. And we're back to the "if" stage- and you know what?!? I love it. I do. I don't know if that "if" will become reality this time, but I know I love how we have been and I love feeling like I mean the world to you. So thank you. I love you so much. You are my best friend.
I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain....away.
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.
